melt my heart

flagpole sitta

I wish this is what we did at my work...

<333

"God doesn't give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you.. to make you into the person you were meant to be."

Chargers fans prayers have been answered

"The Chargers announced Tuesday that the team has relieved defensive coordinator Ted Cottrell of his duties. Inside linebackers coach Ron Rivera, who has previous coordinator experience with the Chicago Bears, has been promoted and will call the defensive plays for the Chargers." -Chargers.com

schools for fools

Last night I got home from school and checked my mail and there was a huge envelope from SFSU. I assumed that it was just a brochure of their school rather than following up on the application that I sent it. I brushed it off and worked on some things before opening my mail. Finally got around to it and it readddd...

"On behalf of the faculty, staff and administration, I am pleased to inform you that you have been admitted to San Francisco State University to begin study in Fall 2009."

Although it is conditional depending on if I pass all my class this semester/next semester.. still very exciting :) It's the only school that I have applied to and I'm debating whether it's worth it to send any other applications out. Especially considering this is my number one choice and regardless if I got accepted to any other schools I would still choose SFSU.. waste of money to send other applications out JUST to be safe?? hmmm... meet with my counselor next week? I think so.

I had plans on studying over the weekend since I have 2 tests tomorrow but of course, procrastinator jen, decided to not even open one book. So now I get to spend all of today trying to memorize a chapter of formulas for calculus and nonsense from econ. woo. yayy for procrastination..!

BUT I did get to see my loves over the weekend :)

drucker jammin

sweet posteralways on the phone..about to beat up peter

Oh & my first attempt at making red velvet cupcakes: unsuccessful. The frosting was amazing (of course it was) but the cupcakes tasted more like muffins...Other people that reviewed the recipe said the same thing, should have known better! ill try a different recipe some other time when I get a chance.

Today's Lesson: Don't put off until tomorrow what you can do today.

XO: JENNiFER

FNY

it's on the one
and now the numbers spill out
into space and into you
well i'm here, i'm at your door now
chillin outside for you
you were lookin like you needed something
like you've never been so unsure
you were squirmin like an unnamed child
and layin on a pile of dirty clothes so tired
well I cried, I didn't know what to say
look at your room
look what you've done
I know things have been hard
but you've gone too far
all a this don't matter now
you'll see what it's about
time waits for no one
you'll see what I'm about
I wait for no one..
FACING NEW YORK//ALL A THIS

uv ajed

Today on my way home from work I got the biggest deja vu feeling. I don't even know why or what was causing it. Possibly deja vu of the same thoughts that I have previously been thinking on a drive home from work.. always so weird when that happens.... It's as if im replaying a scene from my memory.

“It's surprising how much of memory is built around things unnoticed at the time”
Barbara Kingsolver quotes

The butterflies in my stomach they could bring me to my knees

Well everyone (and by everyone I mean Peter and Josh) updated their blogs so I decided I might as well too. Lets see, my weekend was very uneventful. Friday I went over to Druckers so he could transfer some files from my pc laptop over to my mac. I learned that drucker and I both share a love for the piano. We perfected our duet (and by perfected I mean almost played it a few times without error) and will go public with the duet in a few weeks. Get your tickets now, you don't wanna miss out.

Saturday I spent the whole day (literally) playing catch up in my accounting class. Around 6 I went over to a ladys house that I babysit for and watched her kids. We made bracelets and earrings and watched the magic school bus. Then around 8 the kids went to bed and I continued on with my studying. I woke up on Sunday and studied some more. Took the test on Monday and I think I did alright. I ran out of time and had to guess on the last 10 but besides that i was pretty confident about all my answers.

I feel like these past few months I have been sleeping. Not as in getting lost in a sea of blankets and counting sheep, but the type of sleeping where I have been blind to the things that are going on around me. Imagine eating a warm, crispy granny smith apple pie topped with the perfect amount of cinnamon and sugar. Each bite hitting all the right sensations in your mouth. Then in the midst of it you go and brush your teeth (Colgate, of course). You go back to eat your apple pie and it just doesn't taste the same. As the pie touches your tongue you get a bitter, tart taste rather than that delicious sensation you were tasting before. Well, in my life I feel that I have "just brushed my teeth". By this I mean that I am becoming aware of what truly matters in my life rather than surrounding myself with things/people that only fill me with a temporary (and possibly false) happiness. I am learning to see relationships as they really are and not just how I want them to be. I'm learning to stand on my own and take care of myself. Rather than relying on someone as my backbone, I am using my own. I'm Learning that the term "alone" does not mean "lonely". And throughout the past month, this process has given me a sense of security and safety in understanding self reliance. Most importantly, what I am learning is that wishing for something to occur is different from working toward making it happen. I have a goal and I will accomplish this goal. I truly feel that you get what you believe you deserve. With God and confidence by my side I am beginning to design the life that I deserve to live.

So what I'm trying to say is, never pick your nose in public because you never know whose watching.

Good day sir,
XO JENNiFER

most outrageous moments on the news

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it's always you in my big dreams

You spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you...


I miss you.

I hate politics..but reallyy..

and while on the topic of politics..pretty cool Obama video


Obama '08 - Vote For Hope from MC Yogi on Vimeo.

I luuurve you..!

"Love is too weak a word for what I feel - I luuurve you, you know, I loave you, I luff you, two F's, yes I have to invent, of course I - I do, don't you think I do?"

-Annie Hall

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.”

I hate the feeling of watching an opportunity slip through your fingers. You physically and mentally feel it slipping.. and yet, you do nothing to prevent it from happening. In most cases this is because the timing of the opportunity just isn't right. I've experienced all to many of these. After it passes I look back and wonder if I made the right choice. I start wondering how things would be different if I had took the other path. Yet, the answer to that question always is yes, I did make all the right choices - because those decisions have brought me to where I am today.

These past few months have flew by. I wish I could freeze frame time and take a second to just analyze everything. Mon-Wed I'm so busy with school that the days just roll by. Then comes the weekend and I try and catch up with everything that I missed on Mon-Wed. Same shit, different day. Repetition. Yuck! Next fall, please hurry!! <333

running late, as always...
XO: JENNiFER

hello unfamiliar

where words fail, music speaks

My friend & his roommates bring their guitar and harmonica to a congested corner downtown and play to make money. I never imagined to be so intrigued by this. Over the weekend I sat and talked to one of the guys for awhile. He told me about how he travels around the United States with nothing but a backpack. He would hop on trains to wherever they would take him then hitchhike from there. He would either sleep in the streets or he said on most occasions a person would be so humble and kind to let him stay with them. He has the most fascinating stories. It's crazy to imagine doing something like this. I mean, I'd imagine that the circumstances are a lot different for a boy doing this as opposed to a girl. But still, how many people can truly say they'd walk away from everything they have to explore the world? A job, a significant other, family, friends, a bed to call your own... must truly make you value all the small things that life offers.

"Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

XO: JENNiFER

where do I go from here?

God doesn't give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you...

to make you into the person you were meant to be.

fly on, little wing

Well she's walking through the clouds with a circus mind that's running wild, Butterflies and zebras and moonbeams and fairy tales, That's all she ever thinks about... Riding with the wind. When I'm sad, she comes to me with a thousand smiles she gives to me free. It's alright she says it's alright, Take anything you want from me, Anything. Fly on, little wing...

warning sign

mmm soothe the soul..



XO: JENNiFER

Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live

I've been dreaming of going far far away. Maybe a spiritual journey to India, an eating frenzy to Italy.. Somewhere I can get lost and find myself. I hate saying "I want to do this, I wish i had that..". Because what it comes down to is "then do it! then get it!". Then I try to think of some silly excuse as to why that just wouldn't be possible right now. When it all boils down, anything is possible. It's just a matter of how bad you really want it. I'm starting to doubt the career path I'm choosing. The last thing I want is to sit in an office. I hate repetition and there is nothing beyond ordinary about an office. I want to feed the homeless. I want to meet someone different. Someone who is independent, emotionally stable and funny. They have to be funny. Laughter is the key to this little heart of mine. I'm doing really good in school this semester but its consuming my life. If I'm not studying than I'm thinking about how I should be studying. But as I said before and I'll say it again, I love a challenge. Life without a challenge is just boring.


Had a really good weekend. Friday I went to P.F. Changs with a group for Laura's birthday. I hate that Jill and Laura have the exact same birthday. Now that im thinking about it, I didn't even see Jill this weekend. She was doing 21 stuff Saturday night (which I later found out I could have attended because they werent carding).

wendy, ally & jenn

Birthday girl & her boyfren

me & wendy

After pfchangs we went to the Haunted trails where I pretty much almost peed my pants 100 times because I was terrified and laughing so hard at the same time. Saturday it rained (note the pictures of the rain I posted a few blogs down) which was just fabulous! Any excuse to bring out the scarf and boots is good in my book. I went out for sushi downtown and got drenched from walking from the car to the place. I looked like I had just gotten out of the shower by the time I got into the restaurant. Sunday I watched the blue angels for a little. Then went and played pirates with some little kids at petco park. (we were walking around and they told us we could be pirates and even gave us a "ship"..aka part of the playground..how thoughtful).

Finally went to the cupcake place downtown that I have been wanting to go to! Red Velvet still tops the list for the best cupcake. mmmm. sososoo good. Eat your little heart out! It's been awhile since I've had a long bloggy blog so there you go. Have a lovely day bloggeees..

XO: JENNiFER

Wonderland

"Who are you?" said the Caterpillar.

This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied rather shyly, "I-I hardly know, sir, just at present - at least i know who i was when i got up this morning, but i think i must have been changed several times since then."

"What do you mean by that?" said the Caterpillar sternly. "Explain yourself!"

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir," said Alice, "because I'm not myself, you see?"

"I don't see," said the Caterpillar.

"I'm afraid i can't put it more clearly," Alice replied very politely, "for i can't understand it myself to begin with; and being so many different sizes in a day is so very confusing."

rain rain come again!

I wish it'd rain more in San Diego :(

Last night..

XO: JENNiFER

another chapter in the book of my life

Out of this experience, only good will come <333


XO: JENNiFER