Garden State

"You know, this necklace makes me think of this totally random memory of my mother. I was a little kid, and I was crying for whatever reason, and she was cradling me, rocking me back and forth, and I can just remember the silver balls floating around. And there was, like, snot running down my nose, right?. And she offered me her sleeve - and told me to blow my nose into it. And I can remember, even as a little kid, thinking to myself: This is love...this is love."


great movie. soo many memorable quotes. if you've seen it, watch it again. tis all.

best kept secrets in san diego

Last night I went and saw a movie at 'Cinema Under the Stars' in Mission Hills. I can't believe I have been deprived from this place up until now!! Picture a movie theater but without the roof, in love. They show older movies, all the classics (Casablanca, Citizen Kane, Breakfast at Tiffany's..). Although, the one they were showing last night was Ed Wood (made about 15 years ago). Its a Tim Burton movie, black and white with Johnny Depp as the lead role. I wouldn't watch it again but I liked it, so different. The way the place is set up is they have these comfy reclining chairs all in the front. The back row is some tables and chairs, then the very back is the love seats. They even give you a soft blanket that smells like grandpa. The people there loved us for some reason. They were so persistent about trying to get us in the love seat (our final decision: the comfy reclining chairs). Once we sat down they came up and gave us free candy. I didn't hear what they said the reason for giving it to us was but my friend said it was cause we're a hot couple owww.

ticket line

Once you walk in

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Afterward we walked around trying to find somewhere that served spaghetti. We ended up going to this small bar and grill and getting a sandwich. My friend just got a condo downtown, so we went there to check it out when we were finished eating. His friends puppy was there, a black lab. ahhh so cute!!! His place was super nice. I'm jealous of everyone that lives in the city. I love the city, everything about it..the atmosphere, the people, the old buildings, the diversity... I honestly could sit on the corner and people watch for hours. There are so many interesting people downtown. As well as so many things to explore. You could live in San Diego your whole life and still not know of half of the hidden secrets that downtown has to offer..one day I will live in the city. I will wake up every morning, open my door, breath in the air and smile thanking God that I am alive.

I really want to go to the new cupcake place that just opened downtown, anyone down?? Mmm, a little bite of heaven! For my wedding I just want one giant red velvet cupcake.. a huge one! Worlds biggest cupcake status. With extra (extraaa) cream cheese frosting, please. Jill told me the other day "you always have to be different Jen, always have to be different." Very true. The ordinary is too boring.

XO: JENNiFER

whats the word thats burning in your heart

Well I've decided to copy Peter and structure today's blog a little..

Me: For whatever reason, everything that was upsetting me over the past couple months has subsided. I've surpassed my stage of looking at life with a 'glass half empty' attitude. I started to realize that the "things" that were bothering me just weren't even worth it. I honestly can't even really pinpoint what it was that was making me so upset. I think what it mostly came down to was that things in my life were starting to change and I was trying so hard to hold on to certain parts. More and more I'm learning to embrace change. Its really hard sometimes though. I hate how change can draw you so far from someone that you were once close with. But at the same time, bring you so close to others. But that's just a part of growing up. Things don't go wrong, they simply happen. There are just some things that are beyond your control. But It's these types of situations that build your character and make you who you are. You just have to let life play out and see where it takes you.

School: I honestly love school, I'm not going to lie. At times it can be very (veryyy) stressful, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I love to be challenged in life and that's exactly what this semester is doing for me. I have always been that person who just got by without any studying. I didn't excel this way, but I did average. I would pass all my classes but never really took too much out of them. It's amazing how good it feels to do good on a test that you put so many hours into studying for. Starting to realize how much I'm capable of by applying myself. Not only this, but I've been meeting some pretty awesome people in my classes. yayy for new friends!

Work: Not really much to say about work. I love my job. love love love. I actually look forward each day to going in. I'm gonna miss all those lil rascals when I leave.

Last night: September... ahh the month of birthdays! I'm not going to lie though, I enjoy any excuse for all of my friends to get together. Last night was mister Joshua Druckers birthday (actually today is, but we celebrated last night with all the close homies). It's awesome to see all the familiar faces from high school (who aren't so familiar anymore..). Jill and I got him a "5 Things you need for your 21st" gift. We included 1) flask of vodka (drinks at the bar can get expensive!) 2) A shot glass 3) 10 Dollars (to help out with the cab ride home..keep it safe!) 4) Advil 5) a bottle of water (hang over medicine). Then prior to leaving I cleaned up his whole house so he wouldn't have to wake up to a mess. Keep it safe tonight, Joshua!!!!

drucker opening the gift we got him



jill aimee mandy me





tommy alex jillian

I'm so damn awkward!







flip cup..!



the bracelet I gave pete a month or 2 back that he loves

BEST. FRIENDS.

poop



XO: JENNiFER

tonight tonight tonight!!

I wish life had a delete button. I can think of a few things (and people) that I wouldn't mind deleting from my mind...



mmm tonight!!!!!!!!!!!! so excited
get your party hats readyy & sexy pants on
XO: JENNiFER

It's the little things in life that bring the greatest happiness

I love how little things can make your day. Last week I went in to this gas station to fill up. Being a broke college student with a rental car, I'm very hesitant about how much money I spend on gas cause I'm not sure when it's going back. So I put in $12. The guy behind the counter giggled so I explained to him how I have a rental car & why such a random number blah blah blah... Anyspray, so I go in today to get gas and hes like "still driving the rental car?" I always find it very flattering when someone random remembers me. Because it means that something I said or did impacted that person enough to store it in the back of their mind. :) Its funny how something so small can put a smile on your face.

I have so much studying to do today but I have no idea where to begin. I find each day too short for all the friends I want to see, the thoughts I want to think, the places I want to go, the books I want to read.. (I could go on). A couple extra hours in my day would be fabulous! Orrr maybe I just need to be useful with my time instead of sitting at my computer blogging ;p.

"Know the true value of time; snatch, seize and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness; no laziness; no procrastination; never put off till tomorrow what you can do today."
-Lord Chesterfield

Tis all for now, have a lovely day
XO: JENNiFER

you got this little heart of mine in overdrive

I got a 96% on my calculus test.
Chargers won. (destroyed).
My tummy ache went away.

I'd say tonight ended pretty wonderfully :)

XO: JENNiFER

i love yousss

cheeeeseee





locking her in

my lovess

stuck in chinese finger trap with greg


andddd for your listening pleasure, i give you...

there is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream

It seems that no matter how steady your life is you are always going to encounter obstacles. I feel that it's the attitude you take with these obstacles that define how the outcome will be. You see, I am content in life right now. I feel like everything that I need at this moment is present. Yet, there are still times when my mind starts to go into overdrive. This is something you can't always control. I start getting this feeling inside of me that something is missing and I cant figure it out.

Lately, this has been the main obstacle that I keep coming to. It wasn't until recently that I finally figured out the solution to get past this. I always have had someone else in the picture. For the first time in my life, I stopped searching. Rather than placing my feelings in another person, I have directed my attention towards other things. I was always the one telling everyone "you need to learn to love yourself before you are capable of loving someone else". Yet, I was never following my own advice. So rather than loving myself, I'd invest my feelings into someone for a few months. As soon as things began to get serious and I became at risk of getting hurt, I'd get out. The cycle would then repeat itself with the next innocent victim. So by me not getting hurt, I began to unknowingly hurt others. What I'm getting at is that this "something" that is missing is not "someone". At least not right now at this point in my life.

After last night, I am positive that I want to move to San Francisco. I look forward to the memories being created in a new city. 3 Friends on a new journey in life. Being in a new area will add excitement, the beginning chapter of my life. Now this excitement my friends, is the "something" that is missing.

Anyspray, I love finding a song that completely expresses how I'm feeling. My playlist consists of about 5 songs right now that I listen to excessively. Ohh and I saw this car yesterday when Jill and I were out to lunch, thought it was cute & clever..
I need to go shopping for my dads birthday gift & finish some homework. Until next time..

XO: Jennifer

time shall tell

Once again I have come back to the thought that I cannot wait until next year. I am so excited for something new. I'm not exactly sure which path I want to follow right now, but I know that whichever I choose to do will be the right one.

My options..

A) San Francisco. My ideal location to complete college since I was in high school. Not only san fran, but san fran with my best friend mr. peta nudo!



B) Colorado. cheaper housing and a winter wonderland!!! I almost feel that this would be more of a place to move after school. Yet, wouldn't mind starting that chapter of life a little sooner.


Blah, If only I could read the last page first. But I suppose the mystery is what makes life so wonderfully intriguing..

By the way, indulge your senses with the new Kings of Leon.

XO: Jennifer

sweet flaky goodness

Why is it that negative people feel the need to pour all of their problems on to you? It's as if they see that you are happy and they decide its time to rain on your parade. So they release a few of their negative thoughts onto you. They walk away feeling satisfied knowing that they have stolen a bit of your happiness. And you walk away feeling miserable (or as Emilie and I call it "naked, alone and confused"). What an awful and unfair trade! Unless you're on the negative side I suppose...

on a brighter note, oh how I love Thursdays. Finally, a day that doesn't revolve around derivatives & the accounting cycle (referring to school). I say we all get together tonight and create memories!

XO: Jennifer

longgg, predictable day

I hate when everything starts to feel repetitive. My weeks are becoming so predictable! ahhh I need something new.

"I will beg my way into your garden,
Then I'll break my way out when it rains,
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don't trust myself with lovin you."

It's been a long day filled with lack of sleep & school. I apologize to anyone who had to be around me today! Was far from friendly to anyone besides my school friends. sowwiee I love you!
Going to get cozyy, relax & watch a movie
XO: Jennifer

Procrastination.

It's strange how little words can soothe huge troubles. How some one simply asking "whats on your mind" can turn out to be all you really needed. I feel so grateful for everything and everyone that I have in my life. With so much going on right now it is sometimes hard to stay focused on the things that truly matter. There are definitely certain people who have been brought into my life for a reason. To help myself be the best version of me possible. Although I don't always tell these people how much they mean to me, I'd hope that they know by my actions. Ohhh how I love my frensies <333

"In the hopes of reaching the moon one fails to see the flowers that blossom at their feet."
Procrastination is catching up to me right now. Cramming 3 weeks of math homework into one night, the joys! I miss the days when school was easy. When passing classes meant all you had to do was show up. I remember being excited when I'd get sick and get to miss school and watch Wheel of Fortune all day...the good ol' days..

For anyone that has seen City Lights, how epic is this part of the movie?? Aww gets me every time...



XO:Jennifer

frustrated.

I am convinced that the ref was making money off of this game...

what the heck!!!

Stay strong San Diego, next week <33
XO: Jennifer

<3333

Lazy Days

Been working on accounting homework for the past 2 hours so decided to take a little break and bloggy blog. Well lets see, last night I did....oh yea, nothing! To be completely honest though, I enjoy days where I can sit at home and be lazy. I'm so busy lately that I really never get a chance to clear my mind and relax. My mom and I watched Raising Helen which turned out to be the best mom/daughter movie. By the end of it we were both teary eyed. If you haven't seen it, I recommend watching it with your mama.

Woke up this morning around 7:30 and did a little exercising. Got home around 9 and enjoyed a nice bowl of cereal and was lazy for an hour until I decided to be productive and study. Which is where I'm at now.

Came across this quote and absolutely love it, thought I'd share....

"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me'." -Erma Bombeck

Ahhh well nothing exciting, I'll blog later when there's something worth talking about haha have a lovely day!

XO: Jennifer

nudos birthday

mmm I love my friends <333


stan the man

birthday boyy

"trucker"

kiss kiss

"well you look good.."

even cake made an appearance!



BFFFFFFEEE

love vs lust

“Even if you think the flame has died, there's at least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot, and then you'll find yourself as fucked as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see her again.” -John Mayer

Isn't it weird how a song can bring you back to a certain time in your life? I hate when you're in the car and one of those songs come on the radio and it brings you back. I was looking through my computer earlier and came across this email I had written my ex once I had finally moved on...here is a little snippet from it...

"I am writing you to apologize for the person I was. The person you had to put up with for so long. I know its hard for us to be friends right now, but I truly do hope that one day I can look at you as a friend. I feel we both have changed a lot and I can honestly say that I don't know you anymore and its probably the weirdest feeling ever. We both went our separate ways, but that is a part of growing up. and it took me a long time to accept that but I finally have."

we're friends now (if you would even call it that..). I guess a better word for it would be "civil". Gosh, it's so weird to think that at one point we were so compatible!!! To think that at one point we thought we were so in love .. but true 'love never fails' (1 Corinthians 13). So was it lust..?

Marry me?

love this guys voice, amazing <333

My first blog

I started my day off today with a conversation with Peter. Although he always gives me his life lectures, today really got me thinking. He was saying how I always fall for weird guys, but then followed up by saying that's because I'm a weird girl. I used to hate when people called me weird.. but now when some one does I reply with a smile and sincere “thank you”. When it comes down to it, who wants to be ordinary? In our society today, we are taught to blend in. If you can strive past that, well that's just fabulous :) Make a difference in the world, be somebody.

It also got me thinking about relationships. At this point in my life, I have so many goals and dreams that I want to accomplish. It seems as if I'm always searching for some one, but why? I continue to settle for less than I deserve for a temporary lapse of happiness. I think it's because I dated some one for so long that it is what I'm used to. I like the feeling of having somebody by my side. But then again, who doesn't? I'm realizing that right now what I need most is to focus on my life. I don't need any more distractions to prevent my dreams from coming true.