Its been fun, 2008.

Is it just me or did 2008 completely fly by?? As I grow older it seems the days begin to pass by faster and faster. I was going to compile a list of my "best of 2008" memories but I cant even think of any! I easily thought of my WORST memory (crashing my brand new car a couple weeks after getting it). I'll have to think that one over and work on my list tomorrow when I have time. I just realized that this new years may be the last one that I spend in San Diego. Makes me sad but happy at the same time to think about. Making me realize how much I need to treasure each day. I know that one day I'll look back and wish I could relive some of these memories.. but for now..

Happy New Years to everyone :)

"The most difficult thing of all-yet the most essential-is to love life, even when you suffer, because life is all. Life is God, and to love Life means to love God." -Leo Tolstoy

word to the wise:

Don't leave a stack of waffles out on your table if you own a dog.

Took a nap earlier today around 2 and woke up to my brother banging on my door asking if I knew that there was glass all over the kitchen floor. I had fallen asleep with my headphones blasting some old foo fighters and didn't hear any of this. I could have sworn I pushed the plate to the middle of the counter out of dog reach but apparently not. Now we get to monitor his poop for a few days to make sure he didn't swallow any glass. 10 points for me!

On a brighter note, took the boys to dog park today. It was about halfway through that I realized maybe it wasnt the smartest thing to do since Tobey hasnt been fixed. He developed a crush on some shepard and stalked her throughout the park. The owner was one of those 'I think my dog is human' ladies. She kept giving us the "get your dog AWAY" look & eventually just left cause she couldnt handle her dog being followed. Boys will be boys :p

Tobs with his crush & crazy ladyy keeping a close eye

Farewell Christmas..

Have been a little absent in the bloggy world lately so let me fill you in on why. December was the worst month for me with school. It completely consumed my life. All of my finals were comprehensive which just added onto all the stress. I took 7 classes this semester and passed them all. Not only that, but I got my highest GPA this semester compared to the previous couple of years.

December 19th my friends put on a Christmas Show for the homeless staying in the Alpha Project tent downtown. I was surprised to see how enthusiastic everyone was about the show. I stood in the back and this homeless guy name Tim chatted with me the whole time. It was cool because a few people that we met on the street that we haven't seen seen since they got in the tent were there. One of our favorite couples told us that they have been saving up money and are moving into a place soon.. they were saying how much they use to look forward to me and my friend coming and talking to them each week and how we are part of the reason that they continued to stay strong and have faith that they'd be getting off the street. Such a beautiful thing to know that a small friendship you build with someone can change someone in more ways than one will ever understand.

Then on December 23rd they played a Christmas show on someone's driveway in Christmas Card Lane. Soo much fun. My mom came and we made hot chocolate and handed it out for free to people walking by. I love how Christmas puts everyone in the best mood :)

Somewhere in between all of this there were also some good conversations and hangouts with some amazing people. Including a nice argument about why macs are better than PC's with a handful of people that I know ill be growing old with. Once you go mac, you never go back...

I got lunch today with a few friends from high school that I havent seen in awhile. One of them got drafted to the major leagues by the Cardinals. Got me thinking about all the different paths that each of us are on. I hate how as you get older you begin to see less and less of the people who mean the most to you. I can remember back in high school spending every free minute of my time in druckers parents guest house (WNF!). It was as if we would do the same thing every time and it never got old. Its going to be so weird when we all start getting careers and going off in different directions. I can see it now, not being able to open a magazine without it having one of Peters designs in an ad. Turning on the news and hearing druckers voice reporting the latest football updates. Turning to CNN and seeing Jill and Obama joking around over lunch. Swain owning a fancy little restaurant serving the best of the best wine. Renting a video from blockbuster that Ray filmed, edited, produced and probably acted in. Patty being married (because you make more money in the navy that way..)......

Oh I cant wait to see where life is going to take all of us :)

This new years I've decided to make a list of 100 things I want to do before I die. A bucket list. My goal is to accomplish at least 25 of them before 2009 is over. I hate being one of those people that is always talking about all the things that they want to do and doing nothing about it. I have about 60 things so far so when I finish my list ill post it up here, because I know everyone is dying to see all the adventures I'll one day be taking.

Chargers, I have faith in you tonight!!! <333

peanut butter jelly

Until the 17th school is completely taking over my life.

my home town

"I'll take you back to my home town
I'll show you where my feet first touched ground
I'll take you through the streets where love grew
I'll take you through the streets I once knew"

note to self

the inescapable cycle of a 10 dollar bill..

indie music

This is taken from the infamous turtlepower blog and perfectly sums up last saturday night for me..

"last night i went to a really small show with the editor of the jen zach digest and some of her friends and it wasn’t bad. this band called pancakes for penguins played and they seemed like they were straight out of little miss sunshine. they brought a big blow up penguin on the stage but they didn’t just bring it out, it was a epic revelation complete with an intense banging of their drums. remember when Russel Crowe comes out of the cage in gladiator and everyones chanting spaniard? it was way more epic than that."

Similar to as drucker said, the band reminded me of something you'd hear playing in the background of an indie film. The opening song to 'Juno" or "Little Miss Sunshine". We all laughed about how ridiculous the beginning was, yet, I can't remember the name of anyone else that was playing that night. So props to them for originality.



Thanksgiving was good. I woke up early and burned some calories at lake mira mar prior to devouring a weeks worth of food. Then I had signed up to volunteer with Horizon and help make Thanksgiving more memorable for those in need. They offered a meal, haircuts, showers, backpacks full of every day necessities, manicures, feet washing, help with resumes.... (list goes on). But when I got there they already had enough people. Which is awesome though, better to have too much than not enough.

I decided to get some christmas shopping done yesterday on Black Friday and take advantage of some of the sales. I stood in line at one store for at least 45 minutes. The guy infront of me was a nice older man who was saving a spot for his wife as she shopped around. We talked and that helped pass time by while my friend was still searching around the store for what she wanted to get. I'm sure many of you heard about this but incase not..

"At a Wal-Mart store in Valley Stream, Long Island, an employee died after being trampled by 'out-of-control' shoppers who broke down the doors at a 5am sale." (full article)

So ridiculous. Crazy wal-mart shoppers...

I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight

Ive been getting way too excited about christmas! It isnt even thanksgiving yet and I'm already listening to the xmas jams :/ I know pathetic huh?? Im trying to keep it to a minimal until at least after thursday.

Last weekend I went to this Christmas event that balboa was having. During it they had fake snow falling from the sky and it made me realize how much I miss having a white Christmas. Its hard to make it feel like winter time when its still 80 degrees outside. Last year during this time Wendy and I had a friend who had a cabin up in big bear that we would stay at. Just being up there with the cold, crisp air would put me in the best mood. As much as I love San Diego, I'm a cold weather type of person. Any excuse to wear boots, scarves and hats is good in my book.

catching snowflakes


snowing in san deigo

awkward point at tree

hot chocolate & hanging out with a mean one

i was on the news, autograph anyone?

School is almost over!! This semester has been so insane. Over 20 credits is definitely a handful but somehow its all working out perfect. The only class giving me a litter trouble is accounting and it has a lot to do with my teacher. The more the semester progresses though the more I like him. I feel hes very challenging but thats what makes passing his tests so rewarding. I actually feel like im LEARNING something from his class. You definitely have to work hard in his class to pass. I gave my final speech last week so that class is over. Now its just a matter of showing up for the next few weeks and watching other people awkwardly talk infront of the class for 10 minutes.

Over the week I spent some time on 16th street with the homeless as usual. We do the same route each time so we know majority of the people that post up there. Alpha project has been setting up this tent for the homeless to stay at. They do it every year and it gives a handful (a few hundred) of people shelter and a bed to sleep in during the winter. For the past few weeks we've been talking to people who have been looking forward to hopefully get into this tent. On thursday they had the sign up and all the people that we were talking to that were hoping to get in did. They open the tent on Monday and I couldnt be more happy for them!! Definitely plan on visiting our buddies while theyre in there. Its amazing the type of connection you can build with someone by simply offering a little of your time.

//I didn't take this, but I liked the picture//

So this week after we were done (around 11pm) I realized I couldnt find my car keys (dropped them somewhere along the walk). Its pretty sketchy walking around there that late at night but we went back to do a quick check. Everyone was sleeping but we saw this guy Alabama move a little so we asked him if he'd seen my keys. Alabama has been in and out of jail and is well known on the streets, everyone knows not to mess with him. We had spent awhile talking to him and his girlfriend earlier that night and he was telling us some of his stories from jail, soo interesting. When we asked about the keys, he got out of his bed, put his shoes on and without even any hesitation began waking everyone up in order to help find my keys. "Sister here cant find her keys, have you seen them?? If you hear anything about it let them know Bama is looking for them." He was saying how everyone on that street has eachothers back, and how he considers us to be part of that family. And how much he appreciates everything that we do. I cant even put into words how amazing it was. Just seeing how much he was there to help us out when we needed it. My friend was telling me how I need to be careful walking around and talking to the homeless. And that is true, because there are some people who have let drugs consume their life. But that night just proved how much those people have our backs. They know we're out their to help and I know that if any of them saw someone bothering us they would be there in a second to take care of it. Bamas friend was saying "after everything you guys do for us, if some one saw your keys fall I cant believe they wouldn't stop you and give them to you!! If someone with no money saw a thousand dollars drop from your pocket they better stop you and say excuse me miss, you dropped this.." It just made me realize that, yes, we go out there to give food/water but its so much more than that. We spend a good 45min/hour or more talking to some people and building a connection. You're out their to show them that someone cares about them, show them love, because no one else is.

Anyway, gonna end this entry with that...
XO: JENNiFER

All that is gold does not glitter

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

J.R.R. Tolkien

RIP Heath

my minds in overdrive

Thanks to mister Joshua Drucker I finally got to try a cupcake from Sprinkles. Ahhhh sooo good!! If you're ever in the LA area you need to stop by there and get a red velvet cupcake. Even if you aren't a cupcake fan (if thats even possible?) this will surely please your taste buds. Not gonna lie though, Heavenly cupcake falls pretty close behind.

I have 2 huge tests tomorrow that I cant seem to focus on. I have so much running through my mind right now. Its always that last month of the semester that gets me. Im sure im not the only one considering I no longer need to get to campus 30 minutes early just to find a parking spot. I hate it cause I start looking back to what I was learning at the beginning of the semester compared to now and think 'why was I even stressing then???". Luckily my schedule next semester will be a lot easier. Just need to power through this and get it done with.

I went last night to feed the homeless. A backpack filled with water bottles and snacks was all it took to make 16th street shine. On my way home the song "Emerson Drive-Moments" came on and I cant think of a more suitable song. I feel that all too often people will try to ignore what is going on outside of their bubble. I use to be that type of person who would turn my cheek when I'd see a homeless person asking me for change. If I turned my cheek then it wasn't going on. But whether we choose to acknowledge it or not there are problems out there. Mother Teresa was said to have gone that extra mile while the rest of the world was taking an inch. I'm sure if we all just took a foot towards these problems we could create a much deeper impact that this world so desperately needs.

Needless to say, I met a lot of interesting people last night. My favorite was this women name Linda. She was cooking the grosssessst looking food on a portable gas stove and generously offered me some but fortunatly for me I had just ate. Everything she said she would relate to a motto. Funny lady, kept me laughing. Majority of the people we talked to were saying how badly they want a better life. Some are working towards that, while others seem to have lost hope. Being out there and knowing I made atleast one person smile is a gift in itself.

"There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little love." -Mother Teresa

the way I loved you

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine..
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you...
////TAYLOR SWIFT

the beauty of fall

Its hard to not be in a good mood this month. As the weather begins to get colder the warmth of peoples hearts shine. Everyone just seems so much more willing to give and let the caring part of themselves take over. I love it! This will be my last year in San Diego before I move away so I've just really been trying to take it all in and not let my days slip past me. There are so many people who dream of living in San Diego and I feel that majority of the time I don't value what a beautiful city I live in. These past few weeks I've been having the best time doing the most random things that San Diego has to offer. For instance, Saturday I was in the downtown area and "stumbled" across this front yard...

this was what we made out to be a frog wearing a cowboy hat

look behind the frog with a cowboy hat and youll see a monkey (little arrow) on an elephants (bigger arrow) back

Apparently these people have a full time gardener who spends 4 hours a day working on their yard. Each bush is a different work of art. Its almost as if you are gazing up at clouds and letting your imagination take control. Except rather than clouds they are bushes. Their neighbor came outside and was talking to us for a little. He was an older man and was wearing the shortest shorts I've ever seen on a man and a button down shirt that was only buttoned once in the middle allowing his grey chest hair to scream out at you. The first thing he said when he approached us was "Its so nice to see a group a young people, let me ask you, what does B-F-F mean?? I was thinking boyfriend but I cant figure out the second F. Its all over the television and in the newspaper!" he pretty much made my day.

When I got home that day I cooked my mom dinner. It was her birthday on Friday and I was gonna cook for her then but my dad informed me last minute that we were going out to dinner. I made her eggplant parmesan. I've never had eggplant, let alone ever cooked with it. But surprisingly, it came out pretty good! I added ricotta cheese to make it more like a lasagna. My mom is one of those people that value every little thing about life. Shes been through so much this past year and she smiles through it all. So you can imagine how grateful she was to have someone cook her dinner. This is off topic, but isn't technology fabulous? Rather than having a cook book out I was looking on my computer. Imagine what the future holds for technology in the kitchen..

Last night Robbie Seay Band played at my church. Theres something about a raspy voice and acoustic that gets to me. They played a few months back and im glad they came back. Soo good. Robbies brother, Chris Seay, was the speaker for that service. He has a book out right now called, The Gospel According to the Sopranos. Interesting title, caught my attention. He was hilarious and connected with a lot of people there I'm sure. A really down to earth guy, putting what it is to be a Christian in terms that almost anyone can relate with. Towards the end of his speech he began talking about Luke 5. I've heard this plenty of times in the past but every time I hear it it hits me more and more. Particularly Luke 5:29-32. I feel this is a constant question, struggle, whatever you want to call it, that everyone will face while being a Christian and its important to remember this verse.

My goal for today was to finish most of my studying that I had and so far the most productive thing I've done is make a pb&j sandwich. Time to make use of my time before work.

XO: JENNiFER

as drucker & I say..

hearing a favorite band of yours on the radio is like losing your baby to the rest of the world... :( sigh..

a girl with kaleidoscope eyes

Last night I had Thai food for the first time. I had heard about this place in hillcrest called Amarin Thai that was supposed to be really good. The restaurant was really cute, but the food was alright.. we got the Pad Thai which was yummyyy.. then we got this thing called "mambo mambo chicken" cause these people next to us were raving about it. SO GROSS! Tasted like I was eating deodorant. How I know what deoderant would taste like I dont know. And for some reasons I couldn't understand that it was disgusting so i'd keep giving it another try. Thinking that maybe itd be better, but nope. It just got worse and worse. I'd try the place again, maybe, but not for awhile and no mambo mambo chicken. But our silverware came in sleeping bags so that made up for it..

sleeping bags..


lots and lots of water after mambo chicken

As we were leaving there was a homeless couple on the street so we gave them our leftovers and they couldn't have been more happy. They were travelers so they never really stay in the same spot for too long, usually hop trains to get from one destination to another. The guy was saying hes been homeless since he was 14. He said he ran away because he was tired of being hit. If you're ever eating downtown and have leftovers, give it to someone living on the streets.

Has anyone ever seen the giant kaleidoscope by seaport village??? ahhh I cant believe I've never seen this before!! Its the best..turn the big knobs and create your own masterpiece..

inside


Then they have all these earths set up around balboa soo...

too corny but I had to put it up..

pushing it over

nose picking

NOOGIE! such a jerk..

about to hit a homerun

imitation

the giant tree in balboa..

And that sums up my thursday night
XO: JENNiFER

the day I lost my voice

You see love is a drink
That goes straight to my head
And time is a lover
And I'm caught in her stead
And the sentiment there follows me
Straight to my bed through the night
I've got my life in a suitcase
And ready to run run run away
I've got no time
'cause I'm always trying to run run run away
'cause everyday it feels like it's only a game
I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase..
///COPELAND

pretty sweet dance moves

Id like to thank this person for making my morning..



some parts id like to highlight:
hands down, the first 30 seconds are epic
0:46 0:52 1:23!! 2:21 2:30 2:37

I'm gonna have to borrow some of these dance moves

Malawi

Last night my church had a Children of the Nations event. They brought a few of the children from Malawi to share how child sponsorship has impacted their lives. It truly is amazing to hear them speak and see how God has brought such joy to their lives. One boy talked about how his parents died when he was 8 years old and he was forced to take care of himself and his 2 younger siblings. Can you even imagine?? I babysit 8 year olds and try to imagine them having to take care of themselves as well as 2 younger siblings after just having lost their parents and cant. I work with middle school kids and am not even sure if some of them are capable of doing that. One girl talked about how happy she is to be able to share a bed with her sister. She had been so use to sleeping on the floor that having a bed was such a blessing. We tend to forget all of the blessings that we have in our lives. Instead, we get frustrated when a classroom or work areas AC breaks down, when our computer crashes or if someone ate the last of your lucky charms. Even with all the 'bad luck' that this world has thrown at them, they still smile. They were singing a few songs and you can just see the passion and joy pouring out of them. You don't see much of that passion here. After hearing these children speak, It really makes you reconsider what is truly important in life. I feel that people try to block what is going on outside of "their bubble" in the rest of the world because it isn't effecting their life. My goal is to take a short internship this summer to Malawi.



XO: JENNiFER

amazing grace

They sang this tonight at church. Every time I hear this song I get the chills, so beautiful & powerful..

love is never having to say youre sorry

You know that point in your life where everything starts making sense? All those tiny pieces that were scattered randomly begin to come together to form one big, beautiful portrait? You begin to realize why you had to go through certain things in your life because they were all part of the bigger picture. I cant honestly say that my 'big picture' is put together right now, but each day it gets a little more clear in my eyes. Rather than thinking of all the things I should have done, wish I could be doing and hating the things I have to do I'm embracing it all. No need to worry about the future when the present is so wonderful as is. I'm sure none of this makes sense because I cant exactly put it into words but I've hit a point in my life where I'm happy with the path that I am on that is taking me to my future. Life is a beautiful thing, cherish every moment of it :)

It's so crazy to think that in just a few days we will be electing someone new to run our country. As much as I do hate politics, I feel that if you are capable of reading a newspaper or turning on CNN then you should have some knowledge as to what is going on in the world. I can honestly say that I don't like either candidate. I really have tried and just find small things that I despise about each candidate. I feel that John McCain does not have enough charisma and that Barak Obama doesn't have the experience. I feel John McCain will just force us deeper into the war and that Barack Obama will try solving each problem and not accomplish enough. I imagine Obama like spreading peanut butter on a piece of bread. The more you spread it, the thinner the peanut butter will get and soon the impact of the peanut butter isn't enough to make a significant difference. I hope I'm wrong, and soon enough we will see what the future holds for America...!

Time to work on some homework
XO: JENNiFER

bringing it back a few years with this song..

melt my heart

flagpole sitta

I wish this is what we did at my work...

<333

"God doesn't give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you.. to make you into the person you were meant to be."

Chargers fans prayers have been answered

"The Chargers announced Tuesday that the team has relieved defensive coordinator Ted Cottrell of his duties. Inside linebackers coach Ron Rivera, who has previous coordinator experience with the Chicago Bears, has been promoted and will call the defensive plays for the Chargers." -Chargers.com

schools for fools

Last night I got home from school and checked my mail and there was a huge envelope from SFSU. I assumed that it was just a brochure of their school rather than following up on the application that I sent it. I brushed it off and worked on some things before opening my mail. Finally got around to it and it readddd...

"On behalf of the faculty, staff and administration, I am pleased to inform you that you have been admitted to San Francisco State University to begin study in Fall 2009."

Although it is conditional depending on if I pass all my class this semester/next semester.. still very exciting :) It's the only school that I have applied to and I'm debating whether it's worth it to send any other applications out. Especially considering this is my number one choice and regardless if I got accepted to any other schools I would still choose SFSU.. waste of money to send other applications out JUST to be safe?? hmmm... meet with my counselor next week? I think so.

I had plans on studying over the weekend since I have 2 tests tomorrow but of course, procrastinator jen, decided to not even open one book. So now I get to spend all of today trying to memorize a chapter of formulas for calculus and nonsense from econ. woo. yayy for procrastination..!

BUT I did get to see my loves over the weekend :)

drucker jammin

sweet posteralways on the phone..about to beat up peter

Oh & my first attempt at making red velvet cupcakes: unsuccessful. The frosting was amazing (of course it was) but the cupcakes tasted more like muffins...Other people that reviewed the recipe said the same thing, should have known better! ill try a different recipe some other time when I get a chance.

Today's Lesson: Don't put off until tomorrow what you can do today.

XO: JENNiFER

FNY

it's on the one
and now the numbers spill out
into space and into you
well i'm here, i'm at your door now
chillin outside for you
you were lookin like you needed something
like you've never been so unsure
you were squirmin like an unnamed child
and layin on a pile of dirty clothes so tired
well I cried, I didn't know what to say
look at your room
look what you've done
I know things have been hard
but you've gone too far
all a this don't matter now
you'll see what it's about
time waits for no one
you'll see what I'm about
I wait for no one..
FACING NEW YORK//ALL A THIS

uv ajed

Today on my way home from work I got the biggest deja vu feeling. I don't even know why or what was causing it. Possibly deja vu of the same thoughts that I have previously been thinking on a drive home from work.. always so weird when that happens.... It's as if im replaying a scene from my memory.

“It's surprising how much of memory is built around things unnoticed at the time”
Barbara Kingsolver quotes

The butterflies in my stomach they could bring me to my knees

Well everyone (and by everyone I mean Peter and Josh) updated their blogs so I decided I might as well too. Lets see, my weekend was very uneventful. Friday I went over to Druckers so he could transfer some files from my pc laptop over to my mac. I learned that drucker and I both share a love for the piano. We perfected our duet (and by perfected I mean almost played it a few times without error) and will go public with the duet in a few weeks. Get your tickets now, you don't wanna miss out.

Saturday I spent the whole day (literally) playing catch up in my accounting class. Around 6 I went over to a ladys house that I babysit for and watched her kids. We made bracelets and earrings and watched the magic school bus. Then around 8 the kids went to bed and I continued on with my studying. I woke up on Sunday and studied some more. Took the test on Monday and I think I did alright. I ran out of time and had to guess on the last 10 but besides that i was pretty confident about all my answers.

I feel like these past few months I have been sleeping. Not as in getting lost in a sea of blankets and counting sheep, but the type of sleeping where I have been blind to the things that are going on around me. Imagine eating a warm, crispy granny smith apple pie topped with the perfect amount of cinnamon and sugar. Each bite hitting all the right sensations in your mouth. Then in the midst of it you go and brush your teeth (Colgate, of course). You go back to eat your apple pie and it just doesn't taste the same. As the pie touches your tongue you get a bitter, tart taste rather than that delicious sensation you were tasting before. Well, in my life I feel that I have "just brushed my teeth". By this I mean that I am becoming aware of what truly matters in my life rather than surrounding myself with things/people that only fill me with a temporary (and possibly false) happiness. I am learning to see relationships as they really are and not just how I want them to be. I'm learning to stand on my own and take care of myself. Rather than relying on someone as my backbone, I am using my own. I'm Learning that the term "alone" does not mean "lonely". And throughout the past month, this process has given me a sense of security and safety in understanding self reliance. Most importantly, what I am learning is that wishing for something to occur is different from working toward making it happen. I have a goal and I will accomplish this goal. I truly feel that you get what you believe you deserve. With God and confidence by my side I am beginning to design the life that I deserve to live.

So what I'm trying to say is, never pick your nose in public because you never know whose watching.

Good day sir,
XO JENNiFER

most outrageous moments on the news

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it's always you in my big dreams

You spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you...


I miss you.

I hate politics..but reallyy..

and while on the topic of politics..pretty cool Obama video


Obama '08 - Vote For Hope from MC Yogi on Vimeo.

I luuurve you..!

"Love is too weak a word for what I feel - I luuurve you, you know, I loave you, I luff you, two F's, yes I have to invent, of course I - I do, don't you think I do?"

-Annie Hall

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.”

I hate the feeling of watching an opportunity slip through your fingers. You physically and mentally feel it slipping.. and yet, you do nothing to prevent it from happening. In most cases this is because the timing of the opportunity just isn't right. I've experienced all to many of these. After it passes I look back and wonder if I made the right choice. I start wondering how things would be different if I had took the other path. Yet, the answer to that question always is yes, I did make all the right choices - because those decisions have brought me to where I am today.

These past few months have flew by. I wish I could freeze frame time and take a second to just analyze everything. Mon-Wed I'm so busy with school that the days just roll by. Then comes the weekend and I try and catch up with everything that I missed on Mon-Wed. Same shit, different day. Repetition. Yuck! Next fall, please hurry!! <333

running late, as always...
XO: JENNiFER

hello unfamiliar

where words fail, music speaks

My friend & his roommates bring their guitar and harmonica to a congested corner downtown and play to make money. I never imagined to be so intrigued by this. Over the weekend I sat and talked to one of the guys for awhile. He told me about how he travels around the United States with nothing but a backpack. He would hop on trains to wherever they would take him then hitchhike from there. He would either sleep in the streets or he said on most occasions a person would be so humble and kind to let him stay with them. He has the most fascinating stories. It's crazy to imagine doing something like this. I mean, I'd imagine that the circumstances are a lot different for a boy doing this as opposed to a girl. But still, how many people can truly say they'd walk away from everything they have to explore the world? A job, a significant other, family, friends, a bed to call your own... must truly make you value all the small things that life offers.

"Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

XO: JENNiFER

where do I go from here?

God doesn't give you the people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you...

to make you into the person you were meant to be.

fly on, little wing

Well she's walking through the clouds with a circus mind that's running wild, Butterflies and zebras and moonbeams and fairy tales, That's all she ever thinks about... Riding with the wind. When I'm sad, she comes to me with a thousand smiles she gives to me free. It's alright she says it's alright, Take anything you want from me, Anything. Fly on, little wing...

warning sign

mmm soothe the soul..



XO: JENNiFER

Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live

I've been dreaming of going far far away. Maybe a spiritual journey to India, an eating frenzy to Italy.. Somewhere I can get lost and find myself. I hate saying "I want to do this, I wish i had that..". Because what it comes down to is "then do it! then get it!". Then I try to think of some silly excuse as to why that just wouldn't be possible right now. When it all boils down, anything is possible. It's just a matter of how bad you really want it. I'm starting to doubt the career path I'm choosing. The last thing I want is to sit in an office. I hate repetition and there is nothing beyond ordinary about an office. I want to feed the homeless. I want to meet someone different. Someone who is independent, emotionally stable and funny. They have to be funny. Laughter is the key to this little heart of mine. I'm doing really good in school this semester but its consuming my life. If I'm not studying than I'm thinking about how I should be studying. But as I said before and I'll say it again, I love a challenge. Life without a challenge is just boring.


Had a really good weekend. Friday I went to P.F. Changs with a group for Laura's birthday. I hate that Jill and Laura have the exact same birthday. Now that im thinking about it, I didn't even see Jill this weekend. She was doing 21 stuff Saturday night (which I later found out I could have attended because they werent carding).

wendy, ally & jenn

Birthday girl & her boyfren

me & wendy

After pfchangs we went to the Haunted trails where I pretty much almost peed my pants 100 times because I was terrified and laughing so hard at the same time. Saturday it rained (note the pictures of the rain I posted a few blogs down) which was just fabulous! Any excuse to bring out the scarf and boots is good in my book. I went out for sushi downtown and got drenched from walking from the car to the place. I looked like I had just gotten out of the shower by the time I got into the restaurant. Sunday I watched the blue angels for a little. Then went and played pirates with some little kids at petco park. (we were walking around and they told us we could be pirates and even gave us a "ship"..aka part of the playground..how thoughtful).

Finally went to the cupcake place downtown that I have been wanting to go to! Red Velvet still tops the list for the best cupcake. mmmm. sososoo good. Eat your little heart out! It's been awhile since I've had a long bloggy blog so there you go. Have a lovely day bloggeees..

XO: JENNiFER